I’m trying to clean out the photos from my phone to make room for the new ones. It’s the hardest thing todo, to delete these little moments. Most of them wouldn’t make good prints or even be much to look at years down the road in a photo book but its the blurry low light memories that are the hardest for me to purge. While the pictures seem to be from so long ago and girls have changed so much, the pictures only go back to the beginning of the summer. Some of my favorite days so far with the girls and my little family were this summer. Enjoying the outdoors (when it wasn’t raining) picnics, festivals and friends. I know we will have more days to remember but it still makes me sad that time passes so quickly and what was yesterday will never be again.
It’s a strang thing that happens, time goes by without waiting for you to be ready for its passing. I new time went at different paces depending on where you are in your life, I had a conversation with my dad about it when I was sixteen. I asked him if six months to him was shorter than six months to me, he said yes. But I had no idea what it would feel like for time to fly as fast as it does when you have a new baby.
Us women think about wanting a baby, some for a long time, some for a very long time. Then you try to become pregnant, some for a long time, which feels like an even longer time. Some for not too long and before you know it you are expecting, all of the sudden. And before you can blink your belly has grown huge, then your baby is here.
Before you know it all those baby things that you agonized over which one to get start collecting dust in the corner and the other things for older babies, that you thought would stay in a box forever, become necessities of every day life.
I’m a little sad because I love having babies and my babies don’t act like babies anymore. They want to practice walking while holding my hand. They say words after I do, they want things, they understand how their toys work, they chew with teeth, they go to sleep. Everyone says it gets more fun as they get older and can talk to you. I believe them and I look forward to watching them grow and change everyday, but I will miss my babies.
I have loved with more passion that I could have ever imagined these last 11 months of our life. I have loved being mom and watching my husband be dad. Our children are amazing an we love them with every ounce we have. I’m glad you’ve been able to watch them grow and been here to listen to our struggles and smile with our joy.
Sweet baby girls, you got big so fast. There’s not a book out there that could ever prepare us for that.